Defensive approach

It is not anyone's cup of tea to Take the responsibility of anything (as I observed). In my routine I meet many people (in my office also) and I see their any sentence ends with: 'xxx... I believe so', 'xxx... at least as I perceive it', ' I think .. it is like this... I am not sure though', 'bla.....bla...bla.. I guess so'. :-) In fact, I also learned to speak any sentence which is so defensive.. whenever I talk to anyone and want to tell them what I know, I use the word.. '...at least I knew so.. not sure though' .

:D..

If you have seen many people in the kitchen and cooking one thing, you will find this conversation there: 'Oh you put lemon in it? hmm,.. I wasn't aware.. at least at my place I have not seen so!!' :) [did u see the approach there ;) ;)]

There is also another way of being defensive. How? Just put the (soft) blame on someone.. say ur bro or sis.. e.g. I have 'xx' software in my computer and my some friend comes up and asks me .. 'hey where did u get this from? This is not a very good thing, you know..'[he will bombard with the gyan he has about that software]What will be my answer? --'Oh is it? that was my brother who installed it, I don't know why did he do that? hmm.. will ask him!'
Once that friend goes, do I bother why this software lies in my PC? ;)

Another way - 'I did not get time yaar!!' MANY times people use this approach. [Whenever I say people -I am not really excluded :)] Do you need example for this? Or you could think of yours already? ;)

Enjoy people. There might be many other ways of defending and not taking even a small responsibility of anything.

$100 advice: I don't think, it is right to escape from a responsibility, but else it is up to you. :D

Clean it and you know next ~

Cleaning the house is really a very important thing. Wherever we stay, we must keep it clean.
But actual pain is cleaning the tools which we use to clean the house.

I must say.. using a vacuum cleaner and cleaning the house - looks like the work is reduced. We are cleaning the house so easily and so fast. We are using an item which runs by power(electric power, oh!). But why not technology invents the tool to clean the cleaner?
When I see my vacuum cleaner's main box, holding my house's complete dirt,dust, stinky, yukky stuff... I feel like - now who's gonna clean it? :'( ...
Mumma.. using normal broom and wiping the house with wet cloth is much cleaner than cleaning a vacuum cleaner which has not been emptied since last 30 days. yuhhhh!! :(

Well.. however I cry over my -must do thing- I have no escape. Now nothing else, but I'll clean it and then clean the house.
Then I will feel like woow!! house is so neat.[Know what's not clean NOW :( ]

Comments & Comments !

Every blogger is hungry of comments. One more means by which people want to communicate their thoughts in a two way communication manner. I am also (kind of) hungry of comments. But I do not have good number of readers for my blog. Anyways.. how does that matter? ;)

You know, last few days I have been doing something mischievous. :) I go to some of my friends' blog pages and then I comment there anonymously. And I know their nature very well so I comment in such a way that I am sure they will answer me for my comment.;) Totally crazy, isn't it? And good thing is that I am not caught yet. You know normal approach is like, when you get any comment, you try guessing someone from your surroundings only. One can not think wide you know. I know my self, when someone comments, I know the way I start guessing.

If any of those friends read this post, they will come to know that anonymous person is me. Well, till the time your intentions are good, it is fine to harass your friend for sometime. But should never stretch.

There are many people who are so group-oriented. They have many readers and they have many friends and then there you will find so many comments...Oh GOD! I sometimes think, what is it? How many people read and comment? Now the blogger has to acknowledge everyone's comments. If they do not address then the commenter might feel left out. :S hmm...
What to do? Comment or not to comment?

The best situation is like me, where there are not many readers so I just blog my thoughts and I feel satisfied (even if no one reads) & then I do not worry as I do not have to reply to anyone's comment. :) [Funny yeah!!!!!!!]

Exam Result

Yeah... I passed the driver's test finally (in second attempt). Now you will think, why second attempt is put in parentheses? Well... unlike others, I do not want to accept my self talking too much about my first failure, though this post is about my first failure and second success. :)

About a month ago, I appeared for my driver's test (so called - 'behind the wheel' test) first time. At that time, my examiner was a FAT lady who was hardly fitting into my car's seat. She looked non-American to me. It was my first time and I was conscious. Imagine what did I do? Just coming out of the complex I did a critical mistake which they call as 'Dangerous Maneuver' :( I still thought, she would not fail me due to it, she will see my complete driving skills and then she will decide to ignore this mistake or not.. But my driving needed more experience. She told me I drive good and not bad but she is failing me because of the critical mistake. Anyways... I came back with heavy heart.

Now I have to have my license, I just can not live without it. (do you think I can die without a license? ;-) ). I went for my second attempt today. I was at the counter where some lady does the registration..etc.. Now whom do I see there? Lady who failed me first time :( My heart was saying please go from here, please you are not the one who is my examiner this time also. And thank God She was not my examiner. This time it was a uncle (Chinese Uncle- who can easily fit in my car's seat). He asked me few questions and then gave me some instructions and then we started.

This time I did not make immediate critical mistake. Though I was conscious, I was little confident than last time. While driving, he was marking something on the paper & I was like, c'mon man, don't mark the mistakes, I am driving safe. And you know what, these examiners feel that everybody should be afraid of them. As if they are the ONLY talented drivers on this earth & anyone is no one in front of them. Everyone should feel, they are there to face the failure. :( I just don't like them. They make my heart beat faster. (I am not in love with them that my heart beats fast, you know....it is the opposite).

After coming back from a long route, I was not aware of my result. I could see the paper in his hand which was marked everywhere and I was like.. what is my resulttttt?. I was so blank that I could not read his face. I just wanted to hear my result. He gave me some five minutes of lecture and then he said, 'Alright, it is 9 mistakes, so you pass' huuuuuuh... I sighed.... My heart rate was coming down from 120. (I could count it you know ;))

Bottom line is, examiners are mad, they don't know how to behave with the examinee. Can't they just behave like a friend? Don't they know, a nervous person can cause an accident?
Well, I don't want to talk more negative about them, coz ultimately they only passed me :D

I am happppppppppppy, I passed the test. (a very small success though)

Monday Morning and lots -

Blue monday morning.

There is a psychological effect attached with Sunday evening and Monday morning. :-)
On Sunday evening, starting from 6.00 P.M, it feels like "Oh God! It's end of weekend- It's end of good sleep, it is end of (kind of) vacation when I can get up any time, don't take bath, don't brush till late, have bed tea, don't cook, eat anything, play cards, drive a car, (unfortunately, clean the house also), chat with friends, ... :-(( " . Basically I just be a 'lazy myself'.

ummmmm... see the problem involve ..There is always (sad) tension of getting up early on Monday morning BUT, still on sunday night, I never get good sleep.... and opposing to it - Monday morning I feel like I am getting the best sleep ever and I realllllly don't want to go to office.

After all these thoughts, you get up in the morning and go to office and your boss is in full mood of starting a week full of loads of work. One thing which I realized today is: Your boss should never be technically more efficient than you. As he is efficient, he expects everyone to work on the same pace. And I am not that one of the experts who can work on my feet.

However rude your boss be, if he is dumb, you can still rule. But if he is efficient, you are left with no choice than working hard. I am not against learning more by hard work, but nothing on Monday morning... please!!!!!!!!!

Ok let me tell you, how a week goes for a software engineer.

Monday morning: Your boss is extremely enthu to make sure he gets more than all out of you during that week And you are pretty much in Gloomy mood of ended weekend.
evening: You come back home and you chat with your friends/family about your frustration because of your boss.

Tuesday: Your boss knows you are already loaded, he will still come and keep asking the status so that you are aware 'somebody is WATCHING you' (Does he think, he is the CEO of company or what?)

Wednesday: You are going ahead with your plans quite well but then your boss will call off a status meeting and make you feel you are way behind your schedule. (Though he knows there is a lot relaxing time before any (dummy) deadline)

Thursday: Because you already felt you are not done with your work, you stay late and try to finish work, whole day you feel .... what will happen to your weekend this time.. and bla...bla..bla
While you are working hard, your boss is actually planning something good for the weekend and of course now he won't come back to ask you about any status.

Friday: Your hard work has brought some results but you try to work more to relax your monday morning a bit... And guess what? Your boss just gives you one (stupid) smile on friday noon and reminds you ' somebody is WACHING u...'
hmmm... now you keep working.. But your inner self triggers you at sharp 6.00 pm that 'hey cmon.. it's Friday evening, forget work and just enjoy.. '

And there goes your lovely.. lazy... naughty... playful... saturday sundays.. woooow..

So Basically,You only enjoy time between Friday 6.00 pm to Sunday 6.00 pm and there starts your amazing(?really?) pre-week on sunday evening.

wooop.. final destination

I watched movie -'Final Destination -2 & 3' last night. It is not scarry. Just some photogrpahy and that's it. Concept of part 2 & 3 is same, where I was expecting that third will be different and of course after watching part 2, expectation were little high. But anyways..

Oh God - Premonition. Premonition is a type of prophecy consisting of an impressionable warning of a future event. (I took the definition from net) I must say whoever goes through this feeling, his/her life is nothing but a deadly dreams all around. Mummaa... it is not good to have that feeling. Normally when we watch any movie, we feel the movie theme somewhere somehow. And yesterday I could feel that how bad it is to watch people's death all around and remaining helpless. You can't help the situations. There is no ghost in the movie, but if someone has to die, dies anyhow. Even a normal workplace can make them die.

Alright.. this was not all. We watched both the movies the same night. After watching the movie, last night me and my friends were coming home at 2.30 AM, and on sideway of the road, I saw a lady in black attire carrying a shopping cart. GOD! no one watched it, it was only I had become so conscious in watching each and everything around. Actually I was driving a car and hence was looking all around and I saw this.

Hadn't been so scared while watching a movie, I had some after effects of the movie you know.
I tried sleeping at home and oh it was only in front of my eyes. I had stupid thoughts. I thought that lady who was standing out there will come our home (as we stay nearby only) & ask us for a night stay as she is homeless and she needs help for that night only. This is scarry when you are with your only two friends- who did not see anyone there, cloudy early morning (2:30 AM) and no special security around the house AND you have VERY fresh memory of concept of premonition.

Thank God, somehow with help of some soothing music I slept. Now it is fresh white morning, my dreamful night has gone. In fact when I got up in the night to go to bathroom, I did not look at the mirror in the bathroom as that terrified thought was on the mind.

Anyways.. I am relax now.